IF MISSING YOU COULD BLACKEN STARS,
   THERE'D BE NO MIDNIGHT SHOW.

IF MISSING YOU COULD MAKE IT RAIN,
   THE SEAS WOULD OVERFLOW.

IF MISSING YOU COULD MAKE IT HOT,
   THERE'D BE DESERTS ALL AROUND.

IF MISSING YOU COULD SILENCE NOISE,
   THE EARTH WOULD HAVE NO SOUND.

AND SO I GO NOW DREAMING OF
   WHEN I'M HOLDING AND KISSING YOU.

FOR ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH IT HURTS
   WHEN, MY LOVE, I'M MISSING YOU.

Can't hardly wait

     I want to see you standing
in the moonlight, late one night.
I want to take you in my arms
and say, my love for you is right...

    I want to kiss your lips, again,
and touch your silky skin.
I want to wrap you in my arms,
so this loneliness finally ends...

    You are the breath and drink I take,
each day I might live.
You are the love that dwells in me,
and I want so much to give...

    I want to give you everything,
my heart, my love, my soul.
I want to make sweet love to you,
till we have both grown old...

    The scent of you is everywhere,
as if you are still here.
I long to lie beside you now,
but can only shed a tear...

    This love we share is a lasting love,
I know this in my heart.
Someday, my love, you will be mine,
and never have to part...

    Until that time I will think of you,
in the moonlight shining bright.
Then in my mind hold you in my arms,
until the morning light

Too close for comfort

How can you love someone so much,   
that the thought of losing her shakes your entire world?
To know someone for so little time,
and, yet, be so deeply infatuated with her...
When she holds me, all I want... is to stop time,
to close my eyes and savor every inch of her embrace.
Tender, warm, wonderful... She is wonderful...
There aren't enough hours in the day to be by her side.
Like an addict, I memorize every move, every emotion,
every gaze, every touch.
I love the way her head fits perfectly
in the curve of my shoulder and neck,
I love her smell, the sound of my name on her lips,
I love to know that I make her laugh...
And so, it's too soon to know
Yet, I know myself....
That this is love, that this is it,
That she's the one.

I don't want to but I want to... its confusing enough as it is

Much Delayed

SO VERY SORRY TO ALL MAN UTD FANS... BUT NOW CHELSEA IS BACK ON TOP!!!!!!

TO ALL MY LIVERPOOL FRIEND'S WHO ARE FANS........ KNOW THAT YOU'LL NEVER! WALK ALONE xD THE CHELSEA FANS ARE RIGHT BEHIND TAUNTING YOU

" To die, to sleep; To sleep:

perchance to dream.....

For in that sleep of death what

dreams may come."

Lingering thoughts

Sitting here all by myself just trying to think of something to do..... I'm trying to think something, anything just to keep me from thinking of you.. But you know its not working out, cause your all that's on my mind. One thought of you is all it take to leave the rest of the world behind. 2.20pm

Sitting here trying to convince myself that you're not the one for me.. The more I think, the less I believe and the more I want you here with me. 5.36pm

Sitting here trying to entertain myself with this old guitar... But with all my inspiration gone, its not getting me very far... I look around my room and everything, I see reminds me of you. 8.42pm

What are my chances with you....

Chances are, we’ll never meet
And I’ll never kiss your face.
Chances are, I’ll never feel
Your lips or warm embrace.

Chances are, only in my dreams
I’ll feel the softness of your hair.
Chances are, I’ll never smell
Any fragrance you might wear.

Chances are, you’re among
The many that I see.
Chances are, I’ve glanced at you
Perhaps you’ve even looked at me.

Chances are, you danced with him
So, I admired you from afar.
Chances are, late that night
I wished for you upon a star.

Chances are, you live in my head
Because I’ve dreamed you for so long.
Chances are, you don’t exist
But I pray to God I’m wrong...

Foolish Broken Heart!

I came to you
You asked me how I feel.
I talked with you
You asked me what I think.

Why is it so important
For you to know
How I always feel
What I always think
When it is equally, if not,
Far more important
For me to know

How you actually feel
What you actually think
At any given moment
             place
               or time?

After all that's been
Said and done
Why do we still
Have to play
This silly game of
You-hide-and-I-go-seek?
Why are you hiding?
What are you afraid of?
How do you feel?
What do you think?

Why don't we make it Three!!! Bitch!

First my Economics Test now... English presentation.
Some fucking change... big change!

Sonnet 141

In faith, I do not love thee with mine eyes,
For they in thee a thousand errors note;
But 'this my heart that loves what they despise,
Who in despite of view is please to dote.


Meaning:
I swear, I don't love you with my eyes:
They notice a thousand flaws in you.
Rather, it's my heart that loves what my eyes despise;
Despite what you look like,
my heart dotes on you.

"My mistake was actually believing that I could change you for the better.
You are such an asshole who can never learn.
I've finally given up on trying to help you change so fuck off."

She could have been, would have been but shouldn't be you

First day of college today, I've got to tell you it feels great. It's exactly the kind of feeling that I've been dying to feel, meeting people from different areas of the Klang valley its just great. So far it appears that I'm the only Seaparkian there, which I think is a good thing I can start out fresh, brand new without anything holding me back "Cause the old me is dead and gone"- Justin Timberlake/T.I....... Finally a new chapter in my life has finally began as I watch all my bitterness burn. I've been trapped in the past for too long so I'm moving on with my life and setting aside all emotions.


I found you find strenght in your moments of weakness,
for once I'm at peace with myself.

It's funny, how you protect the things that don't matter anymore.

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

I should've known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

This here is my dearest cousin. Her name is Kirly kinda whirly isn't it? She's 18 years old or soon to be. Love to play basketball you can say almost as good as I am =] She's single, loves playing the guitar and just plainly fun to be around. Love you, cousin where are the other pictures?

Broken Strings

You can't play on broken strings,

You can't feel anything.

That your heart don't want to feel,

And you can't tell me something that ain't real.

The truth hurts,

The lies worse.

How can you give anymore,

When you love me a little less than before.

Eh you! ANG PAO mari-mari

The family

The Boyfriend


My dad

Sister (EH!! Bull la do the bullshit face!)

Aren't we lovely? =='

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIYUMI YANAGI!!!

Wondering if you're soundly asleep yet

As I look into your eyes
I dream of your smile
just being with you
makes life worthwhile.

Dreaming of holding your hand
and brushing your lips
as your beautiful hair
passes through my finger tips.

Memories of yesterday;
I sit on my bed and pray.
Tommorrow I'll be with you another day,
regardless of what you do or say.

I'll always be true to you...
this I offer from my heart,
with all these things
we shall never part.

Stay with me, Stay alive

Take a breath, I pull myself together.

Just another step until I reach the door.

You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you..

I wish that I could tell you something to take it all away.

Sometimes I wish I could save you,

And there's so many things that I want you to know.

I won't give up 'til it's over.

If it takes you forever,

I want you to know..

When I hear your voice,

It's drowning in the whispers.

It's just skin and bones,

There's nothing left to take.

And no matter what I do,I can't make you feel better.

If only I could find the answer to help me understand..

Sometimes I wish I could save you,

And there's so many things that I want you to know.

I won't give up 'til it's over.

If it takes you forever, I want you to know that..

If you fall, stumble down, I'll pick you up off the ground.

If you lose faith in you, I'll give you strength to pull through.

Tell me you won't give up,'Cause I'll be waiting if you fall.

You know I'll be there for you.

If only I could find the answer to take it all away..

Sometimes I wish I could save you,

And there's so many things that I want you to know.

I won't give up 'til it's over.If it takes you forever, I want you to know..

I wish I could save you..

I want you to know..

I wish I could save you..

18 / Party

On the day of days, the day where Mr. Tan Khin Xian gets a little bit older, a little bit wiser , a little bit happier, a little bit less emo, a little bit luckier... I think? Anyway, on that day of days I was accompanied by my dearest Hannah.(Slave for a day) So yea, I pretty much got to do anything with her and so I did =] We had to apparently pay to cook our own food... I mean how cool can that be xD.

Then we headed to Jusco, shopped alittle didn't really get anything though I thought we should have... Anyway, after Jusco we ended up at the Batting cages knock the crap out of some balls which was pretty awesome!!! Hannah managed to hit five!... Guys out there beware. Onwards.. We headed for pool and then MPH and last but not least a Movie =]

On the way back from dinner with extended family =].

PARTY!

Well we had a sushi bar party which was mainly for my sister and my sister's friend but yea I was kinda sorta included... Had some of my friends over which was pretty cool don't usually have this kinds of things...

Thank you, all of you for coming and for the wonderful gifts ='] Love you guys =]

Pre-Birthday Detonation

CHECK.... CHECK.... CHECK.... CHECK IT OUT YALL!!!

So much for a normal birthday T.T ...

Thank you, Jay my dearest brother....

I love you!!!!! All though you're miles and miles away

I feel that you're right next to me right now... Beating the shit out of me for saying all these mushy stuff.

Take care of yourself =]